2020.
Never in my wildest dreams did I anticipate that the year I had longed for since my youth would turn out to be the most formidable and fear-inducing. The weight of multiple unforeseen events that transpired throughout this year has molded me into a person of unparalleled strength.
As I have been absent for an extensive period, allow me to provide a condensed overview.
In 2017, I joyously entered into matrimony with my husband, Najmie. Simultaneously, I embarked on my first job, filled with hope and ambition. However, my aspirations of pursuing a Master's Degree at UiTM were dashed by unfortunate circumstances. Adding to the complexity, the news of pregnancy arrived, introducing an entirely new dimension of challenges.
2018 - After giving birth to my baby on January 9th, I made the difficult decision to resign from my job during my postpartum period. I was being underpaid and saw no potential for growth in my position. Surprisingly, my resignation was approved by my boss. I sent out my CV to countless engineering companies, but I had no luck except for one response. I managed to secure an interview and succeeded in getting the job, which came with a 30% salary increase. However, things quickly turned sour. The boss seemed fine initially but turned out to be a complete disaster and, to put it frankly, a psychopath. The company was understaffed, and the employees were overwhelmed with an excessive workload. After six months of enduring hellish treatment, I couldn't bear it any longer and decided to resign. I can't even consider my ex-boss as human. Meanwhile, my husband struggled to find stable employment, working sporadically at a travel agency and earning only RM 5-10k every three months. Whenever he was in Malaysia, he took odd jobs, helping his father sell jewelry. Both of us had low income, but our commitments were equally low.
Despite the hardships, our daughter grew up beautifully into an adorable little girl. She started walking and jumping at just 11 months old. Taking care of her was a breeze, as she was cute and mischievous at the same time.
Taking the leap of faith when I submitted my resignation letter was difficult, but it was an indescribable feeling. My boss suddenly ignored my presence and acted as if I never existed in the office. What a psycho! The notice period was one month, and since my boss ignored me, I started searching for other job opportunities.
Alhamdulillah, Allah answered my prayers. I received news from JPA that my employment status had been approved, and I would be joining JKR in November 2018. I believe it was in September or October when I received the information. Fast forward, I joined JKR and became a government servant.
In 2019, I joined the Civil and Structural Engineering Division. I met new people and adapted to a new environment. I can't say much about this year, but it holds some memorable moments. My daughter, Nuha Humaira, started talking, and I cherish every moment with her.
Since my husband frequently traveled abroad, I asked if he could take me and Nuha to London. Our dreams came true, and we spent about 10 days in Hammersmith. I fell in love with London—the weather was delightful, and the people were kind. I think I should write a separate post about our London experience, InsyaAllah.
However, life took a harsh turn after London. Our car, a Myvi, was nearly towed, and my husband stopped working at the travel agency. He also resigned from his father's company for various reasons. We faced difficulty in finding new job opportunities, and despite applying, none of the applications received a response. But life must go on, right? My husband decided to become a Food Panda rider. It broke my heart to see him in that position, but I felt a mix of emotions—sadness yet pride. For about a week, he earned around RM 200.
During those moments, I would often wake up in the middle of the night to pray Tahajjud. I cried and pleaded with Allah to help us.
Not long after, He answered our prayers in a beautiful way. I will write a separate entry to share this amazing experience.
We then became involved in the tuition business, and Allah arranged everything so perfectly that I couldn't have imagined. In December 2019, I started helping my husband with his tuition center.
The post is too long, I guess. Hahha. Will try to continue later.
Lots of love, Nasuha
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